The Big Change, Scary but Inevitable
The big change…
Change is scary but it’s not something I’m scared of, I’m not scared to ask for help, I used to feel ashamed when I had to ask for help, when I didn’t understand why something was happening or when something was wrong but I couldn’t fix it myself. I have learned that shame is a very personal thing, we own it, it’s ours, we actually do not need to respond to it, just acknowledge that it is there.
Just lately at Philomena’s Boutique, things have not been going so well, I actually thought I was just going to close the boutique because despite all of our efforts we didn’t reach our next funding target, we’re still 10% away but we did get a lot of sales during a clearance that meant we could start planning for our future. I refuse to give up just yet and though the boutique has been valued at a decent sum of money, I wanted to get it to 2 years before I even consider selling it. The boutique was set up in such unique circumstances that maybe it isn’t a forever business, maybe it was my saviour when I couldn’t work as a photographer and that’s okay, everything that comes into our lives is for a reason or a season.
There are a couple of things happening, big decisions I’ve taken, full of love and positivity for the future -
Philomena’s Christmas Boutique
The boutique is becoming Philomena’s Christmas Boutique and we’ll be selling everything for the festive home plus gorgeous gifts you might just want to keep for yourself, in fact, I’ve already placed an order with the jewellery company we used before and we have some fantastic things on the way. No one knows and loves Christmas like I do, Christmas has been at the very centre of my calendar for many years and it’s well known that I try to out Christmas myself every single year. I throw a grand party for all of my closest friends and because we couldn’t hold one last year, this year’s promises to be better and bigger than ever.
My love of colour is eternal and working on my Colour My World project actively over the next 2 years I’ll be promoting the Colour my World collection through the Colour My World page but they’ll still be sold on the boutique site because I can’t bear to make another website, I have way too many as it is.
When we do get our new stock at Philomena’s Boutique we’ll be a lot like TK Maxx or Homesense, we may only get 1, 3, 6 of each product and once they’re gone we can’t promise to get them back against if you see something you love, you’ll need to grab it immediately as we won’t be holding loads of stock. We haven’t yet worked out how often we’ll do a restock as it depends on a few things but we’ll hopefully get new things at least once a month.
I am working more as a photographer than I was previously, I have a real love for wedding photography and I’m really good at what I do. It’s amazing to be working properly again so it’s all a bit of a juggle but Looby will be running the boutique mostly and I am even getting Abigail involved where possible as a way of supporting them both through further education. I’ll continue to do all of the social media and the admin but with any luck, it’s all going to work well. Looby was already doing all of the orders herself anyway as her way of paying for the stabling for Sil, her horse so she’s totally capable and way better at wrapping orders than I ever am!
It’s probable that we may close the boutique in January for a little snooze once the usual end of season sale is done and when we come back is the big question. To me being happy is everything and so I’ll just keep working towards freedom and happiness which go hand in hand.
Thanks for letting me share my thoughts with you. I will be giving away a £100 gift certificate to celebrate when we do reach our funding target which hopefully won’t be too much longer, especially with all of the things on the way like vegan chocolate, beautiful eco-friendly jewellery, gorgeous Christmas decorations and things to make your home smell yummy and seasonal. The future is much brighter than I imagined it would be this time last month so I hope you’ll stick with us as we continue to rebuild what covid took away.